Thats all I have to say!! Im so very excited this is really gunna happen. WHOOOOOO HOOOOO!!!!

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
You keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

These lyrics explain all!

happy fricken thursday everyone!!!!! Hmm what crazy thoughts are going to escape my precious lips today! I have completly decided that I am a walking hormone not to be confused with whore moan! I have been trying to think on how to describe myself. I never know what to say. I know that there are alot of things I want myself to be.
I want to selfless.
I want to be beautiful.
I want to be the person everyone knows they can count on.
I want to be desired.
I want to be noticed.
I want to be loved.
I know im a good friend to many.
I want to be inspired.
I know im a great mom.
I want to be me with out boundries.
I just want to be me with feeling that it is wrong.

Ok there is hope out there for all of us hopeless souls. Not the best response I could have dreamed of ,but who needs dreams anyway there not real right. There was a response though that the important thing. This may turn out for me after all.
I have no patience....
I want what I want and I want it NOW!!

This is driving me crazy!! I am going completly insane. Who knows maybe I was already insane, to think that something so special and something so incrediable could actually be for me. I should have known better. I knew before I started it ,but somewhere in the back of my mind I was hoping praying for that one litte instance for that one chance. It could be a reality.

I stare at the words that were written and try to find where it all went wrong. Why has this come to a stand still. Am I that wrong? Whats wrong with me? I know nothing I am a beautiful charming women who happens to have a very vibrant fanatsy life. Whats wrong with that? If I was a man it would be considered normal,but im not so everything runs away scared. Why did I make the frist move. Why did I even make conatact now my fantsys are all gray. My own fault I supose,but this could have been beautifully dangerous.

Now its just a beautiful disaster!!!